Asperations of Zombie Apocalypse and St. Valentine

Happy Valentine’s Day!

End the Zombie Apocalypse!

“Awake My Soul”

(NEVER start a sentence with “because”). (Why not? Because it’s unoriginal, because it’s overused, because, well, it’s the word BECAUSE, damnit!). I’m happy I don’t have to harp on anyone else about that today. Unemployment has its upside…

Because I’m NOT much for celebrating holidays created to cater to commercialism (or celebrating holidays that have become overwhelmingly commercial), I’m wishing you a Happy Valentine’s Day today. So, there it is, Happy Valentine’s Day! (And, yes, growing up Catholic, I know it’s rooted in some St. Valentine.  Thank you America and corporate America and “civilized” (ha) nations for taking the day to town!).

EVERY day should be about loving other people, and not just romantically.

I’m a HUGE fan of romance! Common, I soak in poetry, bathe in chivalry and all things Renaissance and Pre-Raphaelite, Shakespeare, sonnets, the Psalms, Chocolat, Braveheart, etc. HOWEVER, love is more than a thought or putting on a show for a means to an end.

My show’s been pretty ugly lately. Some choose to love me. Some aren’t even close to “feelin’ it” anymore. Oh, well…

This year I charge you (as I’m doing) to quietly love on yourself, first, before going all out and loving on others.

There are too many deadheads out there and not enough thoroughly alive and breathing.

Life is hard. Life is short. Life takes its toll. Life has too many effin cliches!

But, anywho, End the Zombie Apocalypse today! Don’t wait to wake up and be sweeter than sweet on any given holiday!

Do a favor (and everyone else a favor)-love on yourself today!

I put everyone else in my path first for waaaaaaaaaay too long. I assumed not feeling or putting up a shield to the world, playing super competent and super woman worked. I buried all the crap I was supposed to feel, acknowledge, and let go. Leaving it inside to fester or barraging others by puking it all over them (when they didn’t see it coming and didn’t want it shared) is just plain ol’ gross (disgusting actually).

Getting real. Getting right. Waking up and fessing up. Admitting. Forgiving. Letting it go. Redeeming. LIVING.

I didn’t ask for my world to end. I just listened to fear and labels and lies.

People have it a lot worse off than I do, or you do, or we do. Whah… We each carry a label or a tragedy or a story (no one wants to hear). But, it’s in our honesty that we can override the rot and push compassion to the test.

How many of us (including me) walk around half-beaten, half-eaten, half-dead, until something exciting like a holiday or a party or an excuse to rise above stuff comes along?

350 something days a year it’s apocalypse now when we’re not “feeling” alive or like jumping in the game. Sitting on the reserves bench or hiding in the background of life like it’s some sort of zombie apocalypse, might as well rot while we’re walking. Walking, but living dead.

Love today. Make an excuse to celebrate Valentine’s or Christmas or whatever miraculous holiday you choose every day. Look at an open-minded calendar and you’ll see what I do-somebody celebrates something EVERY day (or almost every day). We all have an excuse to get off our rejected, laid off, labeled, disrespected, neglected, hated, violated arses and help others realize there’s really something more. Because if we can do it, they can do it too. And when misery loves company, usually they walk out a bit more cheery (hopefully anyway).

I may not have put a dent in the world today, but I did the best I could, and I did it honestly and without hating on myself or imposing my own disgust with life on them. Loving myself enough to love on someone else-it’s HARD work, but when we practice compassion (toward ourselves and toward others) we find ourselves in the same realm-one less bittersweet than we though it was.

Be your own Valentine today. Give yourself a break. Accept others as messed up as yous is two.

I’ll end with a lesson someone I admire very much taught me. Someone I wronged because I chose my own darkness and confusion over their Light. I didn’t trust their version of Truth over my own lies and insecurity. Tough lessons are the ones we remember and grow from.

Anyway, this person borrows a legendary quote that today I make my own:

“Get busy (loving) or get busy dying.” (Bob Dylan)

Also reminds me of one of my fave movies of all time, Shawshank Redemption.

I share my quest with dealing with our Asperger’s so maybe you can deal with something you need to deal with too. My son and I are in it for the long haul (and a strange trip is is somedays), but we know we have a Home ahead and Family to love and be loved by along the way.

Hope Cupid finds your weak spot today…

Much love,

Much peace,

Happy Valentine’s Day!!!

(February 9, 2012 at my crib)

I wish you much love (the kind that’s unconditional today).

Here are some lyrics to ponder:

“How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find any truth in your lies
And now my heart stumbles on things I don’t know
My weakness I feel I must finally show
Har har, har har
har har, har har

In these bodies we will live,
in these bodies we will die
Where you invest your love,
you invest your life…”

(Mumford and Sons, “Awake My Soul”)

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